My final thougts.

What exactly, is happening?
Clearly I've been infatuated with my 'fairy tale' life for far too long.

I'm starting to think their was a meeting of some sort - and I just wasn't given an invitation.

I wonder if my presence is requested.
I wonder if I'm missed.

What did I do? - I can only assume.
I tried to organize, I tried to plan.

But how does one miss a sign planted directly in front of them.
By doing exactly what their supposed to be doing - living.

I promised myself this was the end.
"Are you finished with me?"
"Yes."

I told myself, this was the last time.
The.Last.Time.

Oblivious you, sensitive me.
You never noticed, you never cared.
I did everything in my power to care for you.

"You know, I liked you for the longest time. But I finally realized you'd never like me back. I don't want to wait my entire life for someone who can't...-"

They say 'love' is a big word - that the majority of people don't understand what it means.

But I do - I felt it.

Seven years.
For seven years I did everything I could possibly do.
I gave my heart to you, I was yours.
Anything you wanted, anything you needed.
I tried to provide, I would have provided.
You never sought me out
I just wanted you to be safe, I put your happiness above all else.
You were always number one on my priority list...

I've been through it.

Seen all aspects.

Given myself - mind, body and spirit
Devoted myself to one person - to one cause.

Quite frankly, you were the air that filled my lungs.

I know that you could never - though I wish you would have tried.
"-...love me back."

And this is my way of clearing my conscious.

This is my way, of coping.

In with the new, out with the old.

This is my last piece to be written about you.
I'm done, finished.

You'll realize one day - "she's famous; he wants to die"

"You know, there are a lot of things I want from you....and it sounds like there are a lot of things you want from me. Trouble is, you can't have me."