The Shape of Your Cloud

Has anyone else taken a ride upon the well know 'emotional roller coaster'? I'm sure everyone has been on it at least once - most people usually decide to take a spin once a week. I guess I got on board yesterday. Describing my life as "an accident waiting to happen." Quoting the works of Mitch Albon, and promising myself I wouldn't become the ghost, at least, not intentionally. I believe its called 'having a bad day' but I question those ethics. I mean, you could be having a fantastic day, and one little tidbit of information can send your mood spiralling downward. Then of course you start thinking of scenario's that will most likely never happen, but if they do, you're prepared. You'll know what to do because you've already planned what route of action you're going to take. Now here's where my life becomes complicated. I have a day which breaks my world. I have a day where everything starts to confuse me, and it all starts out by the smallest sentence. The smallest misunderstanding of words. So I do what I do best. I think. I think so much that I over analyze the situation and turn it into something its not. That's one of my biggest problems. I have to view the situation from every possible angel, thinking of every possible explanation. But it only serves to bury me deeper into my own depression. So I write. In a journal I have, kept in 'secret' location. It holds my inner most thoughts, my whole life documented in ink and paper. I write, and I pray - and that sounds stupid because what kind of teenager actually believes in God and Jesus? What actual teenager tries to please the Lord, and prays for the safety, happiness, and well being of their family and friends? Most are trying to discover themselves, and she prays. The scariest part would have to be the fact that I know he listens. The fact that the next morning, I don't feel any anger, and bitterness or sadness. In fact, I'm ecstatic. I'm happy and pleased with the world and myself...I guess there really is a rainbow after the storm.