I always swore

Sometimes
You need to learn to accept people you normally wouldn't

Sometimes
You need to reach out to those that have hurt you in the past

Sometimes
You need to love others, even though they are flawed

Sometimes
All anyone needs is a smile

Sometimes
Laughter is the best medicine of all

Sometimes
A kiss makes everything better

Sometimes
You just need someone who understands you and is there to listen.

Sometimes
You just need your friends

Sometimes
You just need your parents

Sometimes
You want to fade away into nothing

Avenged Sevenfold

Boys and Girls,

All I can say is that it was the best show/night of my life.
It was just amazing.
Burn Halo, Shadows Fall, and Sevenfold.

Spectacular!

They're making a new album
...that means they're coming back soon.

Lets repeat the evening?

I just wanted my snowman...

Feels like I'm on the outside looking in.
A third wheel.
Candidate to the opposition - your honor I object.

Shaking hands anticipate the next move.
How do you feel?

Just about to break; falling over the edge.

A fine line between love and hate.
Burn the pages, turn your head.

Find your place amongst the ruins.

You took me into your hands.

Cradle my soul; humor me with 'what ifs...'

Always lose in the end - what happened to fair play?

Rip my hair from the scalp.
Lips sewn tightly shut.
I'm fine, fine, fine, fine.

Cry behind closed doors
Hide yourself in front of others.

Don't judge me
Always competing with the invincible.
Can't win, can't win, can't win.

Be a martyr; give up the only thing you want.

Whatever makes you happy.
She'll give her one true desire...
Collapse upon what's been created.

The deed to my soul...
Love of mine
I'll never let you die
Clasping hands...
You were never mine
Given up...
Time is on your side
I'd still follow you
Perfectly content in shadows...
Incomplete calling
You and I...
Photocopy hearts
This is as quiet as I can say...
Inside, Outside, and again
Hod me in your memory
...please don't let this end.

Circle it!

Sunday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday

Sunday
Monday
Tuesday
Wednesday
Thursday
Friday
Saturday


SUNDAY
MONDAY
TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY
THURSDAY
FRIDAY
SATURDAY

It's usually the same bullshit every week;
just gets a little more tolerable.

Hidden Messages; Secret Words; Musical Melody

Eternity
Simplicity
Spoken
Enlightenment
Narcotic
Together
Isolation
Apart
Life.



"I'll try; try not to lose you."
-A7X



Freedom
Eternal
Emergency
Liable
Initiative
Numb
Ghastly
Superior.




"You do your best to show me love - but you don't know what love is."
-Paramore




Diagnosed
Irreplaceable
Mortal
Innocence
Nourish
Intimate
Secluded
Hope
Intangible
Naked
Go.





"Emotion, Feeling, Can't stop spinning, Just keep breathing; say you need me."
-Automatic Loveletter

White as Snow

Weddings are pretty standard in a discussion.

Females dream of their special day since they saw that white dress in the window.

Males are a little apprehensive; but deep down they want to settle down with someone too.

My love life is a roller coaster; never ending.

I'm finding that, I sacrifice myself for others, but I'm rarely rewarded.

The boy I like, never seems to like me back - sometimes I wonder if I'll ever get to try on that gown.

Since I was a little girl I've been imagining my wedding. A perfect day in either late April or early May. My husband will love me just as much as I love him; I'll finally be able to say 'I do.' I'd finally find true happiness and glee.

Is it too hard to ask for one day of fairy tale romance?
One day where people take notice of me, and the person I choose to spend my life with?
Is it wrong to want the attention and praise you never really received as a child?

I want to hear women saying;
'She's so beautiful!'
I want to hear the men's congratulations;
'They're perfect for each other!'

I tend to fall for the boys that never want to settle down.

The boys who don't think marriage is even an option.

And now I'm starting to wonder if I'll ever be fortunate enough to hear the chorus of 'Chapel of Love'

My final thougts.

What exactly, is happening?
Clearly I've been infatuated with my 'fairy tale' life for far too long.

I'm starting to think their was a meeting of some sort - and I just wasn't given an invitation.

I wonder if my presence is requested.
I wonder if I'm missed.

What did I do? - I can only assume.
I tried to organize, I tried to plan.

But how does one miss a sign planted directly in front of them.
By doing exactly what their supposed to be doing - living.

I promised myself this was the end.
"Are you finished with me?"
"Yes."

I told myself, this was the last time.
The.Last.Time.

Oblivious you, sensitive me.
You never noticed, you never cared.
I did everything in my power to care for you.

"You know, I liked you for the longest time. But I finally realized you'd never like me back. I don't want to wait my entire life for someone who can't...-"

They say 'love' is a big word - that the majority of people don't understand what it means.

But I do - I felt it.

Seven years.
For seven years I did everything I could possibly do.
I gave my heart to you, I was yours.
Anything you wanted, anything you needed.
I tried to provide, I would have provided.
You never sought me out
I just wanted you to be safe, I put your happiness above all else.
You were always number one on my priority list...

I've been through it.

Seen all aspects.

Given myself - mind, body and spirit
Devoted myself to one person - to one cause.

Quite frankly, you were the air that filled my lungs.

I know that you could never - though I wish you would have tried.
"-...love me back."

And this is my way of clearing my conscious.

This is my way, of coping.

In with the new, out with the old.

This is my last piece to be written about you.
I'm done, finished.

You'll realize one day - "she's famous; he wants to die"

"You know, there are a lot of things I want from you....and it sounds like there are a lot of things you want from me. Trouble is, you can't have me."